A past life

An external pressure leading me to try to achieve goals that were not of my own making had me feeling so incredibly incapable, off-path, and unworthy. A transformational thought fell into my mind one day and I let it sit there and knew that a time of change was a-coming. 

She says "Yes"

Saying "no" can feel so good. Comfort is what we cherish as humans, and sometimes to find that we avoid what scares us, makes us anxious or nervous, or just feels unachievable.

Avoidance can't serve you, willingness to take on what you previously believe you couldn't can.

Writing my way through life

The other day though I was staring at my screen pages of notes in front of me and I knew I just needed to start writing when my coworker who isn't a writer said, "Writing is hard, I know."

I didn't even process my response when I said quickly, and hopefully not too rudely, "Writing isn't hard thinking is." Once you start writing natural instinct kicks in and you let your hands become extensions of your brain tracing across the keyboard working out your thoughts as you go.

The books that bloomed for me

Oddly enough, I, Maggie Lynch did not read until first grade. I could read, I knew how to read, but I didn’t want to read…until I really, really, wanted to read and then I didn’t stop. Below are some of my favorite books, the most important books of my life, and I may say that my recommendations hold the weight of the Oprah book club seal.

The age equation

When I was little, I was terrified of growing up because I thought that minutes disappeared after they happened. If I was six, I never got to be six again, and my happiness and sadness of that year fell into a void.

Living and Panicking

Hi my name is Maggie, and I have panic attacks, but most of you probably know that by now. A lot in my life has changed lately. In the past year, I graduated college, got a job, started traveling, and arguably most importantly started to recover from my debilitating anxiety for no one but myself. 

My Dear Friend Zelda

My dear friend Zelda and I met in the underground corners of the library in February, she was dressed in a worn rose pink canvas shell and I in my most artistically charged flannel. In the energetic period of my life I gazed at her home amongst the stacks like it was carved ancient wood instead of beige metal. Embossed in gold type her spine read, Save Me the Waltz and we danced to the north corner of the basement where a like-minded soul had pushed a chair away from the aggravated typing of liberal arts academics. 

Chicago Says, "Both."

For the past six months I’ve walked with purpose, with prowess, with anxiety, without aim, without contention, and with the people among me on the sidewalk past, present, and future on the streets of Chicago.

Tales From The Star Queen

“Alright Mags, once and for all what is up with the star obsession?”

I’m so glad you asked, though I’m not going to tell you. I have gotten this question, in various forms, so often and given so many different answers. There is one answer, one true answer, but that’s for me.

Life & Other Sciences

In 8th grade, I excitedly told my mom about the squid I dissected at the aquarium as part of a field trip I took with my marine life science elective. My best friend and I took the class together and we loved it. Our friendship that year involved a lot of discussion about Grey’s Anatomy, a show that was still in its early seasons, and how we wanted to be doctors. I mean, like, we were really cool, definitely not huge nerds. It was a year later though that I ditched a class for the first time ever after having a panic attack in Freshmen biology.

Chopping Cucumbers

I wanted to write something in light of Anthony Bourdain’s passing. However, writing about him or about what he’s meant to me felt like something he’d absolutely hate—even though I don’t actually know the guy. So, instead, I decided to write about my cooking, my storytelling, and my mental illness struggles. After all, he did kind of teach me a little something about those things.